Last week on the podcast we talked about your husband’s anger. This week I want to talk to you about your anger.
Just so happens I had the opportunity to get angry last weekend. How fortunate for all of us that I could have the experience to share with you.
My intention for sharing it is to teach you how to handle anger better. Because if we don't handle it well, it will prevent us from being our best version of ourselves. In my specific situation last weekend, I didn't want to let it ruin the day, so in this episode, I will teach you what I did to handle it that day and how my coach taught me to honor myself for my feelings and let the anger go, once and for all.
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My name is Tina Haisman. I help women who are struggling with the overwhelm of trying to balance being a wife, mother and career-woman.
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The topic of today’s podcast is …
What to do When You Are Angry
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Now let’s Dive IN and talk about …
What to do When You Are Angry
Last week we talked about your husband’s anger. This week I want to talk to you about your anger.
Just so happens I had the opportunity to get angry this weekend. How fortunate for all of us that I could have the experience to share with you. My intention for sharing it is to teach you how to handle anger better.
Saturday evening my husband did something that made me feel very angry. I am not going to share what it was that he did, to be kind to him, and it doesn’t really matter anyway.
But come Sunday morning, Mother’s Day morning, I might add, it seems he thinks it was kind of funny. That made me feel more upset than I already was.
But it didn’t stop there. It turns out, there were no plans for Mother’s Day. At 9:30 or so that morning, he made the two of us a wonderful breakfast, which I certainly appreciated. But something was missing. The kids. They were still in bed.
Next thing you know, it is 10 a.m., the time Mass starts at our church. If we were not in quarantine, we would have actually been at church at 10 a.m., but since we are in quarantine, we would watch it live from home.
Well, 10 a.m. rolls around and no children are in sight. So, I watch Mother’s Day Mass alone. That made me sad.
After Mass was over, I went upstairs to shower and got ready for the day. Feeling sad and mad.
I also want to take responsibility here and say that I did not share my wishes with my family in advance. Nor did they ask me. I think we should share in the blame there. What I would have preferred is that they asked me before the day what I might like to do that day. Or that they planned something. That they took the initiative. I felt hurt that they didn’t.
Although I felt this way, I did not want my emotions to ruin the day. When I get upset like this two things could happen – one is I might saying things harshly and the other is I tend to stop talking and go inside my head to try to work things out. It looks like the silent treatment. I don’t mean for it to be mean, but I am aware it comes off that way. It’s my way of working things out in my head.
I didn’t want to ruin the day with either of those things. So I decided to take responsibility for my feelings and the situation. And to decide what it was that I might like to do with my day.
So, I decided to start my day by taking a luxurious amount of time to shower and get ready.
I wanted the time to be peaceful, so I said a lot of prayers and even a rosary during that time. I was trying to put my mind and my heart in the right place so I could be the best version of myself when I walked out of that bathroom.
Suddenly, Paul is knocking on the bathroom door telling me the kids are waiting for me downstairs. What is taking me so long? It’s shortly before noon at this point.
I tried to gently say, “OK. I’ll be down soon.” But he wouldn’t let it be. He pushed my buttons with his tone of voice insinuating that I was keeping my children waiting. Those same children who didn’t get up until almost Noon on Mother’s Day.
I told him I just needed some time alone, hoping he would honor that and go away before I lost it. I was trying to manage my emotions. Then he asked the dreaded question. “What is wrong?” And it wasn’t the caring what is wrong question. It was more like what is your problem—like there shouldn’t be anything wrong. Do you know what I mean?
I don’t want to lose my cool. So I breathe. I give him a half-smile. I tell him I’ll be down soon, and I continue praying for God to give me the grace to handle my emotions without ruining the day.
And that is where the magic is sisters. That’s what I want to talk to you about today.
Where I was at was feeling sad and mad and sorry for myself because I was not having the Mother’s Day I wanted to have. I did not feel loved, because my people weren’t doing it the way I thought they should.
But I know that if I lose it, let my emotions go unchecked and act like a jerk, it is only going to make the day worse. So, how do I honor myself. My emotions. My disappointment. Without hurting other people or making the day worse.
What I did on that day was a lot of prayer and breathing and mind work.
I took my time in coming down stairs. Then suggested a game of dominos, because the weather was absolutely horrible. This turned out to be a brilliant suggestion, because it was a distraction.
It was a gentle way to ease into conversation that allowed me to keep my cool.
After that I took a nap. Did some journaling to get my frustrations out. But I still felt sad and disappointed.
Luckily, I had a coaching appointment the next day, and that had to have been one of the most helpful coaching appointments I’ve ever had.
I told my coach that I didn’t want to be mad about this anymore. That I just wanted to move on. She said, “What if it’s OK to be mad about this?”
I was like, “Oh! That’s a concept.” I guess I thought being mad was bad, because it causes me to act out in ways that are not loving. And that’s what I’m trying to avoid.
She taught me how to do that in our session, and it is such an amazing gift. I was certainly on the right path with prayer and managing my mind, but there was the emotional component that she helped me with.
She said, “What if you could allow your emotions of anger without anyone knowing? What if you could go through your entire day, cooking and cleaning and interacting with your family, and nobody knew you were mad?”
I said, “I’m in! Sign me up! How do you do that?”
She said the way to do that is by processing the emotion. And she led me through a process of feeling the emotion of anger in my body and allowing it. That might sound scary, but it was actually very peaceful. After doing this with her, I felt some of the anger literally leave my body. I was amazed.
This brought me to tears of joy, because I felt like it was a way for me to honor myself and my emotions without hurting those around me.
She said to check in with it throughout the day. Just to notice it. Feel it. Let it be. This concept felt so loving to me. And the freedom from knowing I can be angry and deal with it without taking it out on other people.
She said after you process the emotion, then you can ask yourself how you want to feel about the situation. How you want to show up for your family.
For me, I want to show up as a grace-filled woman. Peaceful. Loving. Caring. Understanding. Having a good relationship with my family is more important to me than anything else in the world. And so I don’t want to let my emotions go unchecked and bring chaos into my home.
And she reiterated the importance of doing this work. She said, “You can’t love them until you love yourself.”
This is something that takes intention and work. And I am so grateful for the mentors in my life who have helped me to grow into the woman I want to be.
Friends, I’m here for you too. If you want help growing into the woman you want to be, reach out to me.
Thank you so much for listening in. Please let me know if you have any specific questions.
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Thank you! See you next week!